Keepin' it real.

I have always wanted to blog, and now that I have time, I have alot to say.

I love to write my feelings. I have such a difficult time expressing them in person. But I am just a 24 year old girl, trying to find myself that I lost a few years ago. And trying to find my place in this world.

I have been to many places. Many countries. I have seen so many amazing, heart breaking, beautiful things in this world. But the ugliest, I see when I look in the mirror. I am so obsequious. I love to please people. I love to make people laugh, smile and feel good about themselves. But, I am a dreamer, and I am impetuous.

When I got into my twenties, I started drinking, doing drugs, shoving so many pills down my throat that I should not be alive today. I am a liar. It became so habitual, it was natural. No need for it, I would literally lie about anything. My deepest regret is hurting and losing the trust of the people who stood by through it all. The ones that implemented UNCONDITIONAL love to me, even when I didn't deserve it.

I have recently made a promise to myself and God that I will strive everyday to be HONEST, HUMBLE and a nice human. I want to be the woman that God intended me to be. I am becoming that woman. IT IS NOT EASY! It takes effort. ALOT OF EFFORT.

But Forgiveness, man. that word. I wouldn't be here without it. I have a purpose on this earth. I may not have found exactly what it is yet, but Im on my way.

My goal of starting this blog is to offer advice, give & receive support from people similar to my situation.

Foolish girl was I to think I could conquer this world all on my own. As one of my favorite gospel songs says 'Down on my knees, I've learned to stand. because I can't even walk without you holding my hand.'

I would love feedback from friends, family, strangers. I want to make a difference to someone in this world. Join me.

Much love to you all!
Ericka